A Woman With Parkinson's.
I was only thinking the other day about the good old days, when being a woman was easy.
I used to enjoy doing my hair. Experimenting with my makeup, going shopping. Getting dressed up to go out, Going out for a meal, I also have to put into this category that I used to enjoy cooking, and caring for the family. These things I took for granted, silly me.
Now I'm not saying these things are impossible to do. I'm saying that there are things that have to be learnt all over again, and accomplished a different way, and ok it might be harder and a bit frustrating. But if you want something, you have to try. :-) am I right.!!!
My hair for years, was in the same state, every day. As it was easy just to not bother. Got to admit I was a bit scruffy. :-) My mum used to constantly say, 'you need to visit the hairdressers' I must admit it did take a while to sink in. So just recently I decided to visit the hairdressers, another thing which i find is quite embarrassing. I don't obviously go every week. So to find a good hairdresser that you feel comfortable with and to have a good cut has been enlightening for me. I still do feel a bit embarrassed when I go, but that's on me. It has been easier to manage. I can feel good about my hair looking ok for at least six weeks. Also I'm so glad I have my daughter, who, in between going to hairdressers washes and styles my hair. If not the cut is good enough to just wash and go. :-)
Now make up. That's something I personally used to really enjoy. Experimenting with different looks etc., but now I dread putting my make up on. As it can take a bit of time. It can be funny really, as I now have to do things with my left hand rather than right handed, which I Have been all my life.! Getting makeup on with my left hand is frustrating but also necessary at my age, lol. so I do it. I've poked myself in the eye with the mascara wand, more times than I care to mention. Then there's the black eye, !!!! Which I get quite often when I miss my lashes. Then the lipstick, it should be easy to do, but as I sit there, sitting on my right hand to keep myself as still as possible. I still have to be careful as the lipstick can end up my nose or halfway up my cheek. :-)
Now shopping, I used to, at the least, enjoy going shopping, being able to walk round and have a good rummage in the sales. Even food shopping I used to enjoy. Being able to pick my own produce, unfortunately though, I had pushed myself for years to complete a weekly food shop, but it had got so difficult. That I finally gave in!! I tried the wheelchair and helper method, but as you now know, the wheelchair knocks my legs out, and even though my local supermarket was very good in their assistance, I still found it difficult. So as shopping by feet was not possible either. I have embraced the technology and do it online now. Food shop, clothes, and everything else I may need. Thank goodness for online shopping.!!! I still obviously go out shopping occasionally but unfortunately it has to be by wheelchair and escorted. :-)
Cooking now, used to be something I really enjoyed. Making different meals for the family, cooking cakes and new things, out of the many cookbooks I have collected over the years. Now my cooking is very different, the cookbooks are all in the bin. And anything now for an easy meal. Which does make me quite sad. :-( I know I shouldn't be sad. But when it's something you enjoy. It definitely takes a bit of adjustment. I have lot of gadgets and ways to help me cook but it's the tiredness and pain that it causes, is why it's so frustrating.
Now I'm not complaining or moaning, because this is a waste of time and energy. In fact I would say its been quite a journey both physically and mentally. There has been many a time when I've just wanted to give up, and say 'sod the hair and sod the makeup, sod the cooking, why bother'!! when pain and suffering is at the end of every task. but then there's my family. No chance of giving in with them around. Although I think they find me frustrating as I am so stubborn. :-) also needing to be in control. But that's another story..........