Becoming a research guinea-pig

:cry: I WANT TO SCREAM :cry:
And it's all my own fault. I feel fed-up and angry with myself. This should have been a day of interest. Thursday the 1st of August 2013 has ended up a depressing nothingness instead of the glorious start I had built up to.
My apologies to those expecting another amusing anecdote but I do not feel able to raise any sort of smile. The research goes on and Leena and the Prof. are as professional as ever. This problem is down to me. I am too FAT:disappointed:
Many of you have been following this journal and I hope you have enjoyed the daft contents BUT I AINT HAPPY NOW. We (Including me I suppose) will have to carry on to try and find some level of success for this research. At the moment obviously I feel well down and find it difficult to get started on what is left for me which in turn would have possibly made a difference for other sufferers. I have learnt the hard way that you can't smile all of the time and some things just hurt.
[u]COVER YOUR EARS I STILL WANT TO SCREAM[/u] [u]BECAUSE I AM TOO FAT.[/u]