I appreciate your comment Anna2, it’s very kind. I wish I could do more for those amongst our number who have such dark thoughts. It may not be much but I hope posting to the forum helps a little; we may not have the thoughts that you and others do, but I think most who have Parkinson’s can understand. Like everyone, I don’t know my future. I can’t imagine ever thinking as you do, but Parkinson’s may well have other ideas on that so I would never say never as they say. Interestingly, I also use black humour because to be effective it has truth at it’s heart. My family and friends do not always appreciate it but it is a means by which I can illustrate the reality of my situation in response to their usual ‘oh you’ll be alright’ or ‘i get tired/stressed/worry about my future too,’ I understand why they say such things and that it is well intentioned, but they don’t have Parkinson’s and for me that means I need to be honest about its impact as i see it and black humour is a great tool in my opinion.
Best wishes
Tot
Aerobatix, I really think you should give the whiskey/whisky and hot mistresses another chance.
You seem to have given up to easily with them.
Remember as with medication, different aspects work for different people.
Personally I would keep going with the HM’s and whiskey until you find one/some that work.
Just a suggestion. 
Thanks for your comments. The problem with getting to talk to a head-shrinker is that the NHS has a twelve month waiting list. I’ve tried going privately but she just came up with the same old stuff “so tell me how does your diagnosis make you feel, etc”. No, the hard reality is that I will, at some point, make an evaluation comparing all the various pros and cons comment removed by admin