Hi Blue Angel,
You remember that part three of the trilogy i promised.Here it is.I have included the first 2 parts with explanation.Take care
A Format I have used before
Upper and Lower case,or read as a whole
The story unfolds,yet separates.
(The beginning)-Trilogy(Part 1)
A Tale from Two perspectives
Side-on,mirror,reflects,the enormity of her latest rendezous
HE,INFATUATED,YET COULD SO EASILY DISCARD ONCE HE'D WITHDREW
Her fingers traced the outline,barely visible in disgrace
HIS FOOTSTEPS LONELY,FALTERED MIDSTEP QUICKENING HIS PACE
It didn't seem reality,disbelief replacing doubt
APPROACHING THE FRONT DOOR,TO PLEDGE HIS LOVE,LET FEELINGS OUT
Images flashed through her head,discust,shame,religion,Mother's face
HAD HE REMINDED HER OF HER FATHER,WAS THIS POSSIBLY THE CASE?
The girl had made her mind up,through denial and illusion
THE MAN KNEW OF A DAUGHTER,WHICH FURTHER ADDS TO HIS CONFUSION
Promise me you'll tell him I can't see him,I have gone?
THE MOTHER OF THE DAUGHTER STOOD THERE"STONE FACED",MOVED HIM ON
She's not here,go away now,enough damage has been done
HE STOOD THERE SHOCKED,IN DISBELIEF,FOR HE HAD DECIDED"SHE WAS THE ONE!"
The door slammed shut with her bitterness,resounds in his head still like a gun
DEPARTS IN HIS CONFUSION,NEVER TO KNOW HIS UNBORN SON
Titan(The unborn Son)
The same format.
Upper and lower case,read separate or
together as a whole
The story continues,
The truth(Lies) as told First hand,
filled in with assumptions of a troubled mind.
The lack of comments say it all,Emptiness is forever!
(The beginning)-Trilogy(part 2)
A Tale from Two perspectives
(With ongoing consequences and repercussions)
It's important to keep things hidden,we can't cope,another child !
THE FATHER OF THE MOTHER,SPAT LOATHING,FEELINGS MIXED
You must go away,when obvious,wear loose clothes"keep hidden"styled
I WONDER WHY HER FATHER DIDN'T LIKE ME,EYES TRANSFIXED ?
Adoption then the option,as her hatred pure did grow
INCESTUOUS AS A DRAIN,EMOTIONS THROUGH THIS FAMILY GUSHED
She couldn't wait until"got rid",to people she didn't know
THE CORE OF ONE'S BEGINNING,TEETER ON THE EDGE OF "TRUST !!!"
Hatred built on loathing with every contracting wave of pain
THE FATHER OF THE UNBORN,THAT'S IF HE IS ?,CAUGHT THE NEXT TRAIN
Each push she wished for exit,rejection for her selfishness again
SHE HATED HIM,HE LOVED HER,GUSHING FORTH CAME"PURPLE RAIN"
To cruise the town just like a whore,through every local pub
FORGET THE DAD,THE FATHER,BABY,NO BREAST,JUST FIND A SUB
The trail of her excitement left on each male lap she'd rub
THE FATHER AND THE NEWBORN,NO REMORSE AS BOTH SHE'D SNUB
Titan(The newborn Son)
The Son(The beginning)-Trilogy(part 3),interlude,re-boot prelude to conclusion
A Two year gap since my adoptive Mums near demise
Amazingly,against all odds,decision left to me
The character at deaths door ecaped alive from ward A3
I could have pulled the plug at anytime,consumed in my own hate
But instead insisted they continue,she'd pull through if they wait
So now she lives existing in a care home yards away
One flip side of my torment,lives,with reminders every day
So continues Titans beginning.A twilight world of pain,emotional instability and abandonement.Toned down for public viewing and verse format.
The completion of the Trilogy now extended,must run forever beyond the end of the beginning.As a parallel of self and non-self,the inbetween,the now and what is yet to be await each a trilogy of their own,maybe someday.
It has to be pointed out that a recent visit to my adoptive Mother has again increased my hurt and it is extremely hard to hold back that inside,feelings and emotions which i never share with all concerned.So here can let of steam.If anybody is in fact reading this.
The Son(The beginning)-Trilogy(part 3)
A tale from Two perspectives
The end of the beginning,into childhood.
As part 1 and 2,Two parallel stories in lower case and capitals,plus also reads through as a continued tale in verse.
The Son,(Why was he never wanted?)
She!,deaf to natural feelings,totally blind to any reason
TEARS CASCADE IN SADNESS,WAILING,ECHOES ROUND HIS WALLS
Couldn't wait to palm him off,because she'd come back into season
THE SOUNDS OF DISTANT FOOTSTEPS,NOBODY ANSWERING HIS CALLS
The hatred in her eyes,would not allow herself to bond
STRANGE FACES THEN DELIVER ALL THE NECESSARY THINGS
The bitch she couldn't wait to leave,to run away,abscond
NO MOTHER THERE FOR COMFORT,SHE HAD CUT THE APRON STRINGS
Leaves him there to work his charm,each couple as they pick
JUST ONE OF THE UNFORTUNATES ABANDONED THERE FOR CHOICE
Cannot bear to look at him,the sight just makes her sick
HAS NO SAY DOES THIS BABY NOR ABLE SINCE TO VOICE
He reminds her of his Father,so she re-directs fresh hate
THE HATE SEEPS FROM BOTH MOTHERS,ADOPTIVE AND THE REAL
Agreement's signed in blood to which he never can relate
THE DEVIL RIDING SHOTGUN HAS HIS SOUL,PART OF THE DEAL
Waves goodbye,hides her smile,goes back to see her Daughter
INNOCENT LITTLE BUNDLE,SHIPPED OFF,SPIRITED AWAY
Another messed up kid or should i say"Lamb to the slaughter"
A MAKE-DO FOR LOST OTHERS,OF WHICH REMINDED OF EACH DAY
Mind is blank,cold as ice,selective memory
WHY WAS HE NEVER WANTED?,NOW A CHILDHOOD COLD AND STILL
Back"on the town"she drinks herself so blind she cannot see
WHILST TITAN HIDES INSIDE HIS OTHER,LEANS UPON THE WINDOW SILL
So a slut will never change,downs another drink and waits
STARING AT FRESH BRUISES,HIS UNSHED TEARS ARE TRAPPED INSIDE
She works her way through countless men,at variable rates
HE NEEDS HIS MUM BUT SHE ENJOYS ANOTHER TYPE OF RIDE
Blows rings of smoke to form a perfect halo around her head
IN TURMOIL AND UNHAPPY,FROM HIS WINDOWED PRISON THERE
Increasingly feels wanted with each wet patch in her bed
UNWANTED SON,ABANDONED,JUST A BIBLE TO COMPARE
If there is a soul or conscience,it's never ever seen
THE ONLY PARTING LINK,SMALL BIBLE,TACTILE IN HIS HAND
An easier care-free life or has she always been this mean
COUNTLESS TIMES HE'D READ IT TRYING HARD TO UNDERSTAND
To disown ones second flesh and blood,but keeps the first born there
WHY WAS HE NEVER WANTED?GATHERING DUST UPON THE SHELF
Further confounds any logic,leading only to despair
LACK OF MATERNAL INTEREST CREATES A CONFUSED VIEW OF SELF
TITAN(The unwanted mixed up child)