An ode to normality
Forgive me Normality
For gross neglect of
Your every day
I took you so much for granted that
I hardly even noticed you were there.
Until you had gone.
No wonder you moved on,
To those who showed more appreciation and gratitude.
And now in your absence
I miss you.
I miss your ordinariness
I miss not having to think.
I miss only having to think for myself.
I miss waking up in the morning and being able to take my time.
I miss sharing the washing up,
the cleaning, the shopping , the bed making, the child care.
I miss those easy conversations at the end of a long day.
I miss the sharing of sorrows and joys.
I miss the loving, the silliness, the laughing
The being able to be vulnerable,
Not having to be in charge, in control, the adult,
All the time.
An imposter has taken your place,
Posing as you,
Trying to convince me that they are you.
But I cannot accept that.
I know that you have gone and will never return.
But I cannot accept another in your place.