In a way I can understand how you must feel Moonshine, I've had PD for nearly seven years and was DX at 57, but you have had to contend with it from a very young age so you are bound to feel resentment at some time. As TeeHee said the best route to take now is counselling, it does wonders for your inner self. I had counselling this time last year which after talking to someone and pouring all my fears and doubts out to the counsellor gave me a feel good factor about myself, I definately came away with a different outlook on life, did'nt think I would, but it worked for me. My Neuro made me an appointment with a group called 'Let's Talk', it's worth a try contacting your Neuro and getting something sorted or approach your PD nurse. I noticed when I went shopping yesterday I was holding on to the trolley waiting for my OH to come back from getting something, I had the shakes in my hand, a young girl sitting in the trolley a few yards away from was looking, as I caught her eye she smiled at me which I thought was lovely, because she did'nt turn away and pretend she was'nt looking, I smiled back.
I wish you all the best and hope you give the counselling a go, there is no shame in it, regardless of your gender, men seem to think they have to be the stronger one, but take a step back a little and think of yourself - Sheila
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