Not sure this is the same sort of thing but, i used too be avid angler before i was ill, with time on my hands i still try and go, not only because i have always liked angling, but too say too myself i can still do something on my own terms, achieve something technical with my hands that are at best of times clumsy, get out of the house and feel some measure of independence.
But, there always a but, whilst i'm there, beyond feeling worn out quickly, i find myself always looking for reasons in my mind why i shouldn't be there.
I'm not sure if that's the same feeling of panic??. that home is safer??. and PD controls me, when i want too control it.
While i'm out angling for a few short hours, when i used to do a week at a time, i take along a comfy chair, a mp3 player with 1200+ songs too occupy my mind and a camera too capture the world through the lens if it catches my eye. it helps a little,