I'm new to this, but I don't know where else to turn. My mum has PD and in the last 1-2 years has gone down hill so quick. She is over sensitive to most drugs so can only take a tiny bit of senimet and she doesn't absorb any drugs properly so it's not having the effect it should. She is in a wheel chair now whenever we go out, she freezes all the time, her blood pressure is so low and drops, she has quite bad dyskenesia, she has really bad irretible legs and on top of all that she's just been diagnosed with a leaking heart valve and such bad anaemia that they said she is bleeding internally somehwere which could be a sign of bowel cancer, I have supported my mum and I love my mum but I can't take much more, she's depressed as you can imagine but she constantly goes on about the same thing again and again and how she's had enough and she goes over the same thing all the time and the final straw was doing it at my little boys 5th birthday party a few days ago, I feel so guilty that I can't even put it into words but I can't help it, I don't want to be around her sometimes and I try my best but it just falls on deaf ears, we try and explain the positives from what the doctors are trying to do but she's negative about everything. I feel numb to it all now and I look at my dad and feel so sorry for him because he's able bodied and his life is done basically because he can't do anything, he still wants to go on holiday but she can't really do that anymore as it's too much, we went to Mallorca last year and she was in a wheel chair then and it was hard and I realise that unless there was and is a miraculous drug etc the reality is she won't be able to go on holiday ever again, so is my dad suppose to just live like this, these are things that I feel guilty asking or saying out loud but I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like the worst daughter in the world for having all these feelings. I just need some advice or other people's perspective on it all.