Well everything come to a climax. But first, to say to talk to Hubbie about his illness. He won’t I’ve tried over the years he is not able to share emotions, feelings - he tends towards high functioning aspergers. Doesn’t mean I don’t care.
2 weeks ago I went into hospital for a week with bad infection and high blood glucose, as a result now on insulin.
In the week since I’ve been home hubbie has had ambulance 3 successive days due to freezing and falls. The second time he went to hospital, but sent home with antibiotics for a urine infection next day. That night he again fell. We do not share a bedroom for many reasons. Around 11 pm he called me to help him get up to loo. I’m not a strong woman and lost my muscle use in hospital due to neuropathy, gradually returning to a degree - so pulling him by one hand I managed to get his hand on bathroom door - it is en suite and managed to use bathroom. He was due to have carer in this morning but when I checked on him this morning he was on the floor with duvet under him so I called ambulance again. They’ve taken him back to hospital. I am sharing this because it has been so traumatic for is both. How awful to see what this beastie disease does. Also, he is confused kept telling me and ambulance crew he could smell drugs, he asked me it was me. When he gets confused he can be aggressive - first day i came out of hospital he had a bad day. Asked me why I had changed- was I on drugs. I said not me that’s changing - but realised rationalizing with him when he is this frame of mind is waste of effort. Next day he was sweet and could do enough. This flip flopping always takes me unawares. Not first time he asked if I’m on drugs, very upsetting as I’m so anti drugs and never even smoked pot!. Not looking for solutions as there are none short of a miracle, and keep.praying for him, for us. Just need to share as seeing him in this state is so saddening.