Well, here I am, 7 weeks into diagnosis. Taking some PD meds, and half an antidepressant each nite. I am trying to explain how I feel. I feel like I am drifting through each day, have had a bad throat etc. last few days, but that aside, emotionally/mentally am deeply troubled. It was a relief to be diagnosed, but I feel like I cant be bothered to do anything each day, I am stuggling to be emotionally engaged with my husband, he expresses love for me and is v supportive, but I dont seem to care, its like I am in a bad dream that I am in and no way to get out. I find it difficult to return his affections any more, I have been feeling lost for years...and it seems I still feel that way. Intellectually I know I need to get on and not waste a day, but apathy and sadness are overwhelming. I find I am constantly looking up info re PD. I have always been one to do the research thing, but here at home, decorating, housework, etc. waiting to be done, but just dont have the heart! I feel tired all the time and yet I have had lots of rest. The meds have helped tremor in hand, but am gaining weight and think when I see GP this week, I will be asking to stop Mirtazapine, as I have read it effects Cholesterol and I have had probs with that in the past, I wonder if the anti-d's are making me drift and have no feelings. Going to support group at weekend, first visit, did have a lovely chat last week with a lady volunteer from this site who has had PD for a while. Despite that, I have my counselling session tmw and wonder whether I should continue or what. I was having my meltdowns, emotionally and getting v upset and sad, the Mirtazapine has stopped much of that, but I am here undressed, unwashed, tired, and feeling like I want to go back in time. Miss my grown children who all live a long way from me, Its as if the better part of my life story has been and gone! Does anyone identify with any of those thoughts and feelings?? It seems that the last 7-8 years have been strewn with depression, trauma, counselling on and off/anti-d's here and there, where am I???