Dear Semele, Redpoppy,Fed and Suzynola
Thank you so much for taking trouble to write to me.
I am currently inDorset 2nd week having a break, yes, back on meds, have been feeling better since I stopped taking Mirtazapine week and a half ago. I am feeling less sad and depressed, but I noticed that when chatting to my husband on phone today, after talking about a domestic issue - i.e. poss replacement of a chopping board at home and he was trying to say we dont need to. Money is always a trigger in our relationship, he is very careful and manages well, but sometimes it gets out of hand and in the past I have felt that I am not able to make my own choices and I get very anxious. Before PD this was a hiuge trigger for me and caused me to fall apart, now I feel that this subject is there and am trying to explain to him and remind him about respecting me in my own right to choose. I felt uncomfortable talking about it on phone and I found my tremors coming on much more than they have done of late, even as I write about this I am feeling the change. I wrote and told him about the anxiety and effect on me. He has written back. But that could be good, because normally hje is quick to defend. I do feel vulnerable.
Yesterday I had a wonderful day at Swanage, Dorset, felt a bit lonely on my own and som times just stood in the street wondering what to do. The weather was magical and lovely. I miss my grown children being with me on holidays.
I hope you are all ok today, Fed, you always seem to positive when you write, hope your situation gets better soon.
I am not reading so much about PD nowadays, but now and then I have a read. Trying to get on with living.
I really appreciate what you say.- thank you.
Your friend, Het (real name Beverley) Het was the name my wonderful maternal grandmother was known as, her name was Violet. x