My husband was diagnosed with PD in 2009 and is still coming to terms with it. We have three sons aged 22, 18 and 12. I know that this not the same as having young children but something that my oldest son may give food for thought.
My husband used to shift work which gave him a lot of time during the day with our boys. He was a very 'hands-on' father and used to take them out on many trips picnics etc whilst I was at work. They absolutely idolised him.
Unfortunately undiagnosed Parkie started to rear its ugly head and depression kicked in BIG TIME
. He became very morose and agressive with the boys, constantly moaning at them and critising every thing that they did. Not a great help for them during their adolescence.
When he was finally diagnosed, the neurologist suggested that he took anti-depressants, not something that we were very keen on. However, he decided to take a low dose and very soon his depression had lifted. He still has bad days when he is moody and annoyed but he is now able to cope much more with these feelings.
When my oldest son returned from his gap year trip to Australia, he told me that he felt that his real father had returned. They are now rebuilding their relationship and whilst it will never be the same, I now that my son now cares and loves his father.
If you feel that you need help with depression, do not worry too much about asking for anti-depressants. They do not numb your feelings, they seem to make you stronger and more able to cope with Parkie. My husband has accepted that he will probably be on anti-depressants for the rest of his life and knows that they are helping him to fight and live with Parkie. Rather that than permanently lose the love and support of his family.
Good luck and remember to enjoy your family. Do not let Parkie take this away from you.
Love and light