So sorry to hear all this. That's a lot of really awful news at once.
This is not the wrong place to talk about these issues - the forum is here for everyone affected by Parkinson's.
But it sounds like you need to talk to someone right now. You can call our confidential helpline at 0808 800 0303 or you can try to Samaritans at 08457 90 90.
I do hope you get through this and you come back when you're ready.