Yes thinking I do it all the time, well I was thinking about all the things I have lost since my first encounter with BLACKHEART, so the lost list.
My job,and the self esteem that goes with it so thats 2 things , my workmates 3 my skills 4 my 14 separate licences (operators) ,at least 7 friends two died so 5, my stability 6 , my driving licence 7 i was learning to fly 8 I can no longer do the garden 9 cant travel far without feeling sick10, I cant make models or carry my air rifle to the ranges 12 I cant eat in restraunts as Dyskinesia kicks in, and my food flies all over, 13 my speech is bad so its hard for people to understand me at times 14 I cant walk more than 2mtrs 15 I cant dress /undress without help, 16 I need help with my eating and at times Im so weak I my wife has to feed me, losing my mam and dad so there will be more, many more but lets tot,al them up eh, well 20 as Im counting each loss a one if you see my meaning,
Now there are also gains yes yes there are gains 1 the fantastic staff at NTGH all of them are my great friends they have cared for me for for18yrs, the mental capacity to deal with multiple hits at the same time,2 my family strength 3 the strong friends I have left 4 and then my dear wife 5 without whom I would not exist , then there is this Forum, and all my friends here 6, so 20 v 6 you would by any measure say the losses won but you would be wrong, as apart from my losing my parents , they are in my past so I dont fret ,right now I feel ok so I dont think of the losses I just get on with the life I have been dealing with all those painful years, and will continue doing so until I breath my last and if BLACKHEART thinks otherwise well he better be up for it as I have all you losses on my team, so YAH BOO SUCKS blacky gird your loins,, and fill your hand you sonofab???,, yes I know but I like being daft and recent events have only made me more resilent ,I am at NTGH urology tomorrow , then back jabs ASAP but Im ready now so onward .
Best to all FED