A very good morning to you Caroline and thank you once again for your kindness, I regrettably cannot say that there has been any change, I love my wife more than life itself ans she assures me that she loves me more than ever but simply totally and finally she does not want a sexual relationship, least not with me, its only to be expected as there has been ZERO passion for ,well about 14 months and very little for the last6 years so we have given up on sex and once desire and lust no longer power a relationship ,for they are the powerhouse which ignites the need to pounce and create spontaneous intense passion, we used to do this all the time, anywhere anyhow, my lovely wife and I know I am biassed here but she is a very pretty curvy lady with the bluest of blue eyes she only has to look at me now and I melt, I know this post is becoming a bit mills and booney, but Im trying to give you some Idea of how I feel about her my desire is certainly not reciprocated I am afraid, and my worst nightmare is losing her. Parkinsons has taken me on a round trip of emotion Caroline first it powered up my Libido to light speed, during that period my Lady thought it was fantastic and I was only too pleased to try anything, some things I cannot disclose here, indeed when I think back my actions and suggestions placed us in harms way, and its only by luck that my wife was not sexually assaulted,we used to visit places in Newcastle sex clubs for want of a better word , and both got a buzz watching each other being chatted up by complete strangers, but once these very dangerous situations began to develop we left quickly, it was the danger that created the thrill Caroline and when I think back to that period and what could have happened to us I shudder. And now here we are or I am, I lost all my desire my Libido vanished and to be honest I was pleased, for all the adventures we had I could have lost my wife then, and now its back with a vengence only this time I think she fears a return to those exciting but dangerous exquisitley dangerous adventures, I have talked at great length to my PD Consultant and Nurses and they have informed me that if I use too much of the Dopa Drug , in other words I use the boost button on the Duodopa device, it can have the effects which I am experiencing and I admit I have used it perhaps a little , or more than a little recently as I have been shutting down a lot so I use the boost to fire me up unfortunately Its produced a person I dont want to be, a sex pest to my beloved, I will stop the boosts and see what occurs, and will let you know the result, once again thank you for your concern its much appreciated.
The very Kindest Regards FED