Hello, I feel I must write this as I know many of you will recognize my fears.
I have been married to my dear wife L for thirty one years, I am not going to say
we have never had a wrong word or disagreement that is impossible , all that
precious time has slipped away in a instant . when we met it was a very special time ,we simply could not keep our hands off each other, a passion unmatched I was
thirty L was thirty six it was a magic time for us as it is for everyone when a new relationship begins. I had just survived a very painful divorce and had custody of my two daughters , my wife had never married and had no children yet she took on the role of Mother to my precious children with enthusiasm looking after them as if they were her own, it was a wonderful time.
The years rolled by my ,daughters are now 40 and 38 and I have five lovely Grand children I am 63 in September ,L is 69, and has been a loyal true partner ,we have had some hard knocks and L was always there she backed me ,thick or thin, and
then in 99 I was diagnosed with PD , at first nothing seemed wrong I had very few symptoms and life carried on as normal,things were to change I suppose it was
inevitable really , as the symtoms of this hated disease became more intrusive
and my wife was faced with the most horrible of tasks she became impatient and
sometimes very cold and distant towards me, as the PD was growing I felt our love dying, oh I still love and desire my precious lady, but the burden placed
on her is I feel becoming so great the prevailing attitude towards me is of uncaring or perhaps grudgingly caring is nearer the mark, I hate myself for erasing the warmth and closeness that we had ,I feel unwanted unneeded and we
co exist in a rather chilly relationship now, Its not good, I am needing her
more and more when she is becoming more and more cold and hostile,there has been
talk of visiting her friend in Spain for a week or three and I have encouraged
this as I know the strain is reaching breaking point for her it may help to get away from this sad situation even if it means the ultimate sacrifice and I lose her god knows it must be unbearable to see her once very capable partner reduced
to a very different person, a wreck in many ways, the benefits of the recent
Duodopa have not unfortunately not improved matters so we shall see.
Kindest Regards fed