I was wondering if anyone had noticed that their motivation levels were different since the advent of PD. I think
mine may be reduced...
I recenty came across this:http://www.guardian.co.uk/science/video/2012/may/18/neuroscience-psychology?INTCMP=ILCNETTXT3486
(a 17 minute video that discusses the role of dopamine in the brain; it mentions Parkinson's but isn't primarily about it).
Naturally, I blogged about it:http://bloggingwithparkinsons.wordpress.com/2012/05/19/two-faced-dopamine-and-the-difference-between-wanting-and-liking/
One of the video's focuses is the fact that dopamine-depleted individuals are less likely to seek out pleasures, but that they enjoy them just the same if they do achieve them. This is the difference between *want* and *like*.
It's about motivation. Can you be bothered? Do you have a sense of urgency about imminent minor events? It's not really about the physical effort required - although that's a factor, naturally, particularly in the later stages of PD. I wonder if its related to fatigue, though.
Now, I'm in the earlier stages. I'm doing pretty well on ropinirole. I have very minor physical issues - not really enough to make me late for everything all the time 9although suddenly realising that I NEED to go to the loo JUST before leaving doesn't help; but by then, I'm already running late anyhow).
I'm almost always late for stuff.
I always used to be late taking the kids for school. I always used to be one of the last mums to arrive at collection time.
There are exceptions. I seem capable of making a special effort for special events - I was actually early
for Just Walk last weekend (I did the 20 km - see, I told you I'm still OK, physically). And when I have another competent adult with me, I'm OK.
Did you spot the past tense on the school run? My kids still go to school. To primary school. But I don't take them, not now that I'm working again (since Monday - full time). The childminder takes them. And we - my husband and I - we get the kids to the childminder nearly an hour before they need to be at school. And it's been OK. Two of us to chivvy the kids on - that helps. I manage to get dressed, get ready, get kids' stuff together (my husband claims ignorance of the requirements), even eat breakfast. Why couldn't I do all that on my own, with more time? I don't know. I'd stop. I'd forget that I needed to keep an eye on the time. I was rubbish. Before I had kids (that is, some time before I was diagnosed with Parkinson's), I wasn't like that. ... Well, I wasn't early all the time. But I waasn't all that
Is it motivation? That video implied that it might be.
I have company. Motivation
. I have the excitement of a new job. Motivation
What do you think? Is it a daft idea? Or can I legitimately blame my recent habitual lateness on my neurology?
... And does anyone else have similar experiences?
(That's why I'm asking here and not writing another blog post. I want to know if I'm imagining it.)