Hello Sir, I fully sympathise with you, battered from all sides ,worn out and of course Depressed, the continuous sleepiness will amplify any fears you may have. I cannot make your life easier with words, but you can with actions, believe me you can do it. I do not know you or which part of Planet Earth you Inhabit or how much support you receive either professional or from family or friends, but I will offer you an instant temporary stop gap solution, then of course you can tell me I am being silly and to go away, or words to that effect
and to shove my suggestion,,, well,,you know what I mean, anyway hear it is the
feds temporary solution to your predicament. First step is hard, it means leaving your home, always very difficult when feeling like you do , it also involves setting a target and pushing hard , as hard as every last sinew in your body wil
endure, if you have a friend to accompany you great, but I found that achieving
my goal alone produced a more lasting effect, also even if you have a car, leave
it at home, very painfull, its a home on wheels next step go to your nearest bus
or Train station and pick a destination, any destination it could be somewhere
you have not seen since childhood ,anywhere, but be sure its not too far and buy a return ticket, you will be coming home. During your trip try to take a interest
in the countryside and towns you pass through, if you have a camera take pictures of anything and everything, it will not be easy, but its not meant to be
you are challenging yourself, the most difficult challenge you can face.
When you have arrived check the time of your return, do not miss it and don't leave it too late, fast forward, you are home, you have completed your task and
you are completely sh....g worn out obliterated, but and I can almost guarantee this, you will feel Happy tired ,confident tired, I HAVE ACHEIVED tired you will sleep like a log and the next morning as I have done many times you can sort your photos, you will be pleasantly surprised , you might have taken 60 70 80 shots,
be super critical of your work, one trip I took 357 photos and edited them down to 4 that were good, and only 1 that was great. Mr Potter64130, I can almost hear your thoughts, " this guys nuts" and at my first attempts I thought I was nuts
all I know is at the end, when I returned home and crashed out in my favourite chair , yes I was all aches and pains and very tired, but I was HAPPY tired.
Good Luck Sir, and the very Kindest Regards fedexlike