Sorry to hear that. Depression is a terrible thing. I know that first hand - my husband has suffered for over 20 years - I can often see an attack coming. In the early days, my local GP was brilliant - because my other half had mentioned to him he felt like going away somewhere on his own……… my GP arranged with me that I could call him and tell him how things were with my husband - he had phoned me up at work and told me to get home asap as my husband was talking about going away on his own - . Trouble is he left and moved away.
Please promise me you will seek some help - perhaps try your PD Nurse. But don’t just live with it on your own. People do care you know.
Things haven’t been good with me either …. My neurologist seems to have lost interest with his role - several people who see him who attend the PD Gym Club I go to have all voiced the same thing. I have some new symptoms that I want to speak about I emailed the PD Nurse 4 weeks ago and still haven’t heard from her so have booked an appointment with my GP. Only trouble is, she is not ‘up’ on PD.
The symptoms are drooping eye lid and muscle cramping. The neurologist said they have nothing to do with PD - BUT there on the leaflet in the med boxes both say these are side affects to the drug and tell your doctor or neurologist hmmm. I am also getting
warm glows (very mild)my stoop has got worse and the warm glows come on when I bend forward - more they too are mentioned as a reaction so wonder if I need to change my meds!!!
Now haven’t I cheered you up with my moaning ha ha.
Seriously speaking please promise me you will see someone about your depression - the other things you can change once you are not so depressed. That is the main thing to deal with I really do know from seeing my husband come out of the black cloud.
Please feel free to rant and rage to me, its all I can offer, but I mean it. You can say anything, swear, whatever. You are not alone, I can’t meet up with you but, I am here write to me say what ever you want. I won’t be embarrassed, I don’t condem, promise me you wont just sit there and get more depressed.
Years ago we were abroad on holiday and I sat in the shade reading when my husbands voice caught my attention, he was in the pool talking to a woman - I could hear him telling her things he had never told me about his depression. It turned out she was a nurse and worked with mentally ill people - she had picked up on his voice and conversation that he was depressed. I learnt from her the need to get depressed people to talk. She told me she had ‘worked with’ people on the Jamie Bulger case and cases like that - I have always been thankful to her. Sorry for going on and on.
BUT don’t deal with it on your own.