i often sit and watch my  wife  going about her  tasks in our home and feel so guilty, she washes  cleans  irons hoovers dusts gardens paints indoor and out shops and often has to feed  me  as I dont have the strength to lift my arms also I cant swallow  food ( only  ice ceam) so  she has to cut my food up to  micro size before I  can  swallow it, i  need her  for almost every thing  I do if I had to pay it  would be  300 pwk I cant  type  this now  as the cold is affecting me so  bfn