I appreciate your overshare Ocean-song. My husband is newly diagnosed this year, we were planning his 50th birthday which has had to be seriously curtailed while he adjusts. Frustration is one of the strongest emotions for us both.
Am I truly a bad wife? I want PD to go away, most days we muddle on, and I have learned to be MUCH more patient and believe me that is a massive improvement and hard work, but I am so angry for both him and me, and I am so frustrated and worse I am so emotional, is this it? our future was meant to be fun, him and me doing all the things we said we would when we got time. It's just not fair.
On top of that the mortgage critical life cover we had, has refused to pay out as the medical notes have outlined how my husband didn't attend an appointment at the hospital for tremors in his hand in January of this year, as he was in denial there was a problem, so when we signed up for the insurance in March and he didn't mention the appointment (because he had forgotten about it), he also wasn't diagnosed until June, however, they have put it down to him deliberately omitting it and lying, now I am worried sick he will need to give up work (he has a very physical job) in the next five to ten years, I may be needed to care for him and how on earth are we going to cope with the mortgage. I am sick with anger, frustration.......Why couldn't he have admitted there was a problem and been honest, and why can't the insurance company pay the genuine people like ourselves?
I know....think how he feels (I do honestly), but is it so wrong to be angry for myself too? Having re-read this I sound so selfish, and I truly love my husband and I will be there for him because I want to be, but I just need to vent, and can't say that to family or friends they would be so shocked.....