Hello I am new to the forum although I have read many posts and thought my battle with our commo n foe might be of interest, I was told I had pd in 1998 and had no idea the pain AND suffering I would be enduring 17 yrs later, now I cannot walk far about 5 yds without dystonia, I cannot eat without dyskinesia, or choking or both, I cannot sleep for night terrors and hallucenations so there are times when I am not a happy bunny but the one thing well two, nope eh 1 2 3 ???? 15 things that keep me pushing parky back in his box they are my family, I have to fight hard to keep my head up and this is made possible by Duodopa, this device powers me up quickly i the morning and if I manage my day I can get through with only 1 shut down if I am careless I will be punished 3 or 4 times by th beast, and the evil entity living in my brain hits harder and harder almost every day now, so I often wonder how I am not conumed by depression and suicidal thoughts and I have had my share of both but that would simply load my pain unto my family so its not a option,,no I think I am simply too stubborn to back down when parky comes to play when I have only %5 of my power left and think I am dying I motovate myself by really losing my temper and using every bit of my Builders Bast///s and Buggres learn to swear reference book I GO from front to back and have it off by heart now, of course this method is ot acceptable in company or on the street so moderation is necessary at times however it works and it just shows it is possible to defeat the beast and also has shown me that I have more willpower and mental reserves of strength than I thought I had unfortunately I feel I am becoming tolerant of Duodopa ,,( my main back up) if that option is no longer available where do I go then I have been told I have usded all known medication in my war with parky and im running out of ammo folks. Answers greatly appreciated urgentlyrapid with haste and A S A P.
KIND REGARDS BROADSWORD