Hello to all,
I am thinking how I can explain my disapearance , and silence, ok I know its not required but I need to tell the tale as its not nice as I changed my personality so much, and worse I look back and survey the awful wreckage and destruction caused by my behaviour and feel so ashamed especially as my dear wife was hurt deeply by my selfishness, I should mention that I have had terrible shutdowns and Dyskinesia with alarming Prostate symptoms over the last year but the hammer blow was the death of my dear Mother age 96 and though I thought I had bottled the depression aspect of parky well when my Mam left us a new war fired up and it was hell '
My sad tale has been building for about 3 years with rampant obsessive behaviour which wasthe need to buy
Sorry for the break I was needed elseware , but this info will be over in a few minutes as part of my managing the OCB is rationing laptop time, more on this later, as I said the need to purchase items mainly die cast 1/50 scale model heavy plant trucks of which im talking hundreds , then I developed what can only be described as OCB resulting in me purchasing some fantastic looking alloys and low profile boots for our Toyota Yaris , bear in mind the car already had alloys and only weeks before I had fitted new tyres to them this did not go well with beloved and a major flare up ensued but it made no difference and I still have almost a fetish with alloys and tyres, but the most hellish evil entity developing in my head was the return of the hyper sexuality, dangerous hyper sexuality, I will continue this thread later as my alloted time is up so for now I must go but I will continue tommorow
BFN FEDEXLIKE OR FEDif you like
Can I ask if you take a Dopamine Agonist?
If so, PLEASE ask for help.
This obsessive, destructive behaviour can be stopped if you change meds to Levadopa.
It is not easy and needs a lot of support but your life can be changed.
if you are not on DAs...still get help.
You do not have to have your life ruined like this.
Welcome back mate you've been missed.
Live well. Cc
I was just about to post a long description of my illness when it vapourised so no change then,,,, I will attemt to wrie this again but not toniht sorry guys
Hi fed not nice that ocb.gambling sex .drinking can rip you and family apart i had £41,000 bankruptcy think i was on premiprezole.
Woweeeeee......good to see you back on the forum young Fed ....I haven't been on for a while but thought i would have a butchers tonight and see whats what....and there you were. I realised a while back that you were very low matey but i am so sorry that things became so much worse for you. Also i know how close you were to your lovely Mum and i am so sorry for your loss, she was such a character and you have such a lot of fantastic memories of her.
I won't bore you with my escapades at the mo !! but when you feel like a catch up....or a rant ...you have a lot of pals on here including me who are good listeners....so go for it my mate
Meanwhile keeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep Rockin and Rollin.
Your imitablebledelke style immediately takes the eye Dear Dolly and how pleased I am to be contacting you again,, more to come hope all family are well can you resend your email to me as my laptop expired and this one is my dear wifes im in my message place
Kindest Regards Fed
Q Wont u come out to playaaaaaaaay
Q Made my way upstairs and had a smoke,, dont worry im not jumping subjects these are only a small 2 questions for DOLLY (AND anyoneelse) of course these words from beatle music
My condolences too Fed on the passing away of your mum. Hope time will heal how you feel today and through the weeks. It's a hard thing to accept, and makes matters worse with your PD, but I wish you well
Hi Dolly nice to have you back, hope lifes treating you and your OH well, take care
Regards to you both - Sheila x
Hello Sheila and thank you for your kind welcome, I have posted elsewhere re my Mums passing it seems to have made me stronger,, she was a very tough strong willed Lady its almost as if her attitude to life has passed to me, her youngest child
Crikey Gus, I am saddened by the predicament you found yourself in mate and I do understand
All in the past fed.another day passes
Gday young Fed...so good to see you doing the Beatles quizzes again........Weeeeeeeeel Dear Prudence was the 1st and the 2nd was one of my very favs A day in the life. Triffffffffffic songs.
Did you get some Rescue remedy matey ?
Correct Dolly, I meant to mention in my last posting I have aquired a most SAVAGE pain in my left lower hip and left thigh imagine the worse pain ever then times it by all the stars in the known universe plus all the grains of sand on this planet.and you wont even get near, my wise ?? young gp said "trapped nerve take these", these being painkillers I believe well apart from rattling parkies cage and giving me the runs,,,nay the sprints, the pain worsened so back to gp, and so on and so on well a bone scan, XRAYS (MANY) a CAT SCAN is next where am I going to find a cat at such short notice , I was told I needed a MRI scan but thats a no go as the tube feeding Ddopa into mt gut has a wire in it so MRIs are NOTPOS as the wire will either fry me or 500,000£s worth of scanner and wouldnt that please everyone in the NHS, I have ideas of my own 1 Pstate cancer, 2 Trapped nerve 3 the stooped posture forced upon us guests of BLACKHEART,,or a ALIEN tunneling its way out as experienced by John (ibethathurt) Hurt in the best of the Aliens series, it couldnt be more painfull oh and I now have very very bad Dan Druff I knew his Bro Desperate Dan Druff, so there you have it just how many times can you kick a man when he is down eh,,onward ever onward
Is anyone else host to this mariad of wonderous torture types
1 Apretty nurse is selling
2 that grow so incredibly high
3 a man with a foolish grin is keeping fed FED (i HAVE just had supper)
Hi fed as you know i have dbs so I'm also not allowed mri but i do remember reading that are some mri scanners which are safe for dbs and your pump.maybe google search
Good evening young Fed I can't help with info re scans but i will say that OILATUM is brilliant for Dandruff or Seborreah Dermatitis ( what makes you think i have been a hairdresser for 48 years!!!???? haha!) or if you want something more natural try massaging 2 tablespoons of pure lemon juice into your scalp and then rinse with 1 teaspoon of lemon juice in water. Repeat regularly until it goes .Lemons acidity helps the PH balance of the scalp and reduces dandruff.
Anyway enough of that ...what about the answers to todays quiz?????
Well of course the 1st is PENNY LANE...which i was given for my 14th Birthday by my best mate who years later went off with my ex Husband !!yep really.
2nd is LUCY IN THE SKY....luv it
3rd is FOOL ON THE HILL...another favourite
They all bring back memories....some better than others hehe!!!
Keeeeeeeeeeeeeeep rockin DAN DRUFF !!!
Watch you don't get the juice in your eyes FED! E45 shampoo is good for a dry scalp, hubby uses it from boots
Hi Dolly, you got the answers I had, but did'nt post them incase I was wrong and showed meself up!! Anyway hope you and hubby are as well as can be expected
Take care both - Sheila x
I will look into that I hope you are feeling ok , I cant have dbs not the right type of brain apparently,people have been saying that to me for years, what a coincidence eh?
T hanks for the info Sheila Dolly and Gus I wii try all, as I am like a walking blizzard and keep walking into lamps and things,
1 and kept my mind from wandering,,where it will gohoh
2 came in through the bathroom window
3 though she was born a LONG
4 yes your gonah be a star
5 ALL my friends have lost their way
6 PC41 said weve
Hi Sheffy....Sorry i have not chatted for a while, i haven't been on here much recently. My poor mum is back in hospital, well for the last 6 weeks since yet another fall this year. She is very low and weight bearing is becoming almost impossible, sadly she will not be able to return to her flat and so my Sister and i are spending much of our time finding the right care home for her, in between spending as much time with her as we can. I had no idea the difference between them all and the price!!! but she comes first and is our priority.
It has affected the old parky a bit with the worry and so very tired at times, which means that Mr Dolly worries about me! He is doing so well thank you for asking, the Prostate Cancer is in remission and he is in very good working order again !!haha! He had a Brain scan 2 weeks ago and will get the results in November, so we are hoping for good news again.
What about you my luvly? have you had a good summer and keeping as well as poss? i expect you have been enjoying spending time with your little Grandkiddies? growing up fast and looking forward to Christmas no doubt. (oh dear ive mentioned the "C" word already) well i have seen cards in the shops already.....tooooooooooooo early!
Keeeeeeeeeep smiling matey
luv Dolly x