A very good morning to you John, your concerns are relevant and I understand your worries, and I also know that no amount of encouragement from me will ease your acute anxiety regarding the " installation "of this system for that is exactly what it is , the device is a installation , a machine if you like, when I was offered it in 2011 I simply refused to even consider DD , who me having this Alien hang on to my body with its hideous tentacle feeding Dopameine via the tube into my small, absolutely NO WAY I made my argument that I was managing fine with the Madopar capsules, and the back up Entacapone, which you have been offered, of course I was not managing at all, massive and prolonged shut downs extreme bad temper caused by the frustration of not being able to plan trips or hollidays , Obsessive Compulsive behaviour some of which was hypersexuality, caused by the cocktail of drugs I was taking now this latter side effect we took advantage of for a while, my lovely wife though it was like a second honeymoon, but as time went on I became a pest, only with my wife mind, but that was bad enough, so a major change in my drugs was carried out and things levelled out. This violent swing from normal to beast was a major deciding factor re DD and after much discussion and worry anguish and fear the Operation was carried out last March and I am so pleased I went through with it, mind I almost backed out John, I had been in NTGH for a week having tests , checking to make sure I was compatible with DD I was and the following Monday was DD day ( a little light humour there)however I completely crumbled on the Sunday, I bottled it as they say and decided not to go ahead, giving no thought at all to how much work had gone into aquiring DD for DB? DB my initials " well im trying to ease your fears",, I observed the young lady ,my Mentor throughout making a phone call and this resulted in my Nurse Consultant A paying me a visit, now when I tell you that this amazing young lady has kept me on track for more tha 15 yrs you will understand I trust and respect her probably more than anyone I know, she sat down and explained it was the last chance saloon for old fed and that there were no other drugs in the cabinet that would help, she chatted away and I saw the light, the rest is history, and the next day I was fitted with the device DD, At first i was clumsy and shy I hated people asking to see it, but as time went by these feelings went and now 91/2 months later I dont really notice it, I do have to take care obviously , not to catch the tube on obstacles, but you can minimise that happening by using the many different carrying cases and waistcoats available which conceal the pump and tube but also prevent them from being pulled or damaged,. There is a little dicomfort during the tests with a tube up your nose to administer the drug but thats soon goes, and again during the op but again its no worse than a trip to the dentist and once fitted you will soon attain competence handling the pump , flushing the tube and removing-refitting at night and in the morning ,your DD mentor will not leave you until she is confident in your level of skill , it would be of great assistance if a member of your family could maintain a presence when you are under instruction , its always handy to have backup,may I ask John, do you have family close by that you can call if you need assistance. I also understand your fears about handling the system if you are shutting down, this can be bothersome but remember you can always in an emergency take your capsules until someone arrives to help, its all about planning John , yes its a pain in the a,,e and there will be times when you hate it but dont give up as I said its over 9 months now for me and I am 95% ok with it, it means adjustment John inconvenience and yes embarrassment at times but so much help is available which you must take advantage of I am 100% sure of you taking DD and making it your little Alien helper, your opportunity to a better life, having read all your posts with interest, it is obvious you have the capability ,go for it John, if the worst case scenario occurs and its not for you a 15min op will take it all away, but that wont happen Dr John, It will work for you PLAN and MANAGE John.
All the very best John I wish you well "courage Mon Ami.